Validating My Voice… or Lack Thereof

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SadPlaywrights.com
  So, it's feeling really sucky to be a playwright right now for me. And I think I finally figured out the cause of my suckiness: I'm no longer getting the validation I used to get from my writing. I think I wrote in a blog post AGES ago as to why I want to be a writer.
I love feeing the instant gratification of being a playwright! If something works, then I'll instantly know through applause, sniffles, laughter, etc.
And it's been forever since I've felt that instant gratification. I guess boiling it down even further, I miss feeling like I matter. I wonder if some of the writers in the website mentioned in the picture above, sad playwrights.com, feel the same way. It may seem silly to some, but once I felt the "approval" of others, it felt like my life was validated. I had a purpose, to write for an audience, and because I haven't had an opportunity to present any of these stories lately, where did my reason to live go? Note: this isn't a suicide note or anything! I'm good! But it just sucks that the reason to feel alive has fallen on deaf ears... or rather, blind eyes. So, what am I planning to do to get out of this rut or way of feeling? Well, for one thing, I've been investing a lot of time looking at opportunities on The Official Playwrights of Facebook Redding page (https://www.reddit.com/r/playwriting/comments/4dd0wk/april_may_2016_playwriting_opportunities/), Play Submission Helper (http://playsubmissionshelper.com/51-play-submissions-with-june-deadlines/), etc. I've also been reading up on a couple of articles on Howlround. At the end, I just need to keep going!

Article by Conrad

Conrad's a San Francisco Bay Area Playwright. He loves long walks upon the concrete and rainy days. Aside from writing words for actors to regurgitate into an audience's ears and eyes, he loves sports, 90's R&B, and learning.

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